i let the whole world down

it rises to the scene,
as it arose from the sea.
it ascends to the heavens;
it came out of me.

light is an illusion

I have lived long;
since they created the stars.
The formation of planets
from yours to ours

This speckle of light,
a burning wick in infinite black.
Everything is just darkness
when the only light hits your back.

church walls oozing slime

I've thrown away our God,
ate from the table made of sin.
I need someone to preach;
A parable made for me.
The burns were only a test
for the pain won't ever rest
No miracle, when I bowed my head;
never an angel once heard what I said
I need this to work; i need one last breath,
Push down on my chest,
my body can't do the rest.

chemical imbalance

As I watch the door sway back and forth;
outlines of shadows appear and disperse.
Inside my chest the gates have been opened
only now could things get worse.

But I do not fear how one day I will disappear;
oh, how my appearance resembles calm and collective,
but my core trembles from despair...
This broken soul of damaged flesh,
smelled by wolves my bloody tomb drips.

I watch in anguish as I know it's me;
it's me they have come to consume.
Their eyes fixate on my crumbling core,
a bloodlust has arose;
they come to rip me from this world.

With fur grey obstructing vibrant colors from my eyes;
I count the beast as they surround me,
but numbers reach higher than those known by I.
No point in fighting...
here I die


Sun rays sneak through openings within the color faded curtains;
dust particles dance as they suffocate the room of oxygen.
The light invades my tired eyes as I slowly arise from vivid dreams;
I dream of black and infinite blank; a world where nothing escapes the seams

Saints fear the madness which i encounter every night
but i loathe the madness which comes with daylight.
For only a split second do I remember-
what life without consciousness felt like.